#1: Here goes...
An ambivalent introduction to what I hope will be an exciting adventure
Hello, My name is Keith, and this publication is going to be A Magrathean Undertaking.
I honestly don't know whether or not you SHOULD read this. Maybe you shouldn't. I'm neither wise nor unbiased enough to weigh in with any acceptable degree of objectivity. What I DO know is that something indescribable within me is compelling me to publish God-only-knows-what, for reasons that remain ineffable to me at this point in time.
I’ve already been waiting patiently now for an unreasonable length of time, for a reasonably articulate justification to compose itself in my mind, so that I could write something more concrete here instead of this. But I can’t wait any longer without also suspecting that such a justification may never present itself to me (or even exist). So, if I continue to wait for my motivations to make themselves clear first, I risk never publishing anything that I write. And THAT is truly terrifying.
Perhaps then–I hope–it is by taking this plunge first, writing God-only-knows-what, and then publishing it through A Magrathean Undertaking, that my motivations will–slowly and incrementally–make themselves transparent to me.
Finally, if nothing else is achieved, maybe the exercise of writing God-only-knows-what without the security that comes with knowing why, is EXACTLY what I am aiming at. I have a long history of self doubt, distrust, and demolition. So, IF nothing else, think of this as me learning how to trust my gut, instinct and intuition, justificationlessly. Because THAT, for me, is A Magrathean Undertaking.